After ages, i am thinking again :)

An interesting question thrown at me today got me thinking. I being the only person at the table who was not in a relationship, was thought to be the ideal person to answer. The question was whether I would prefer to be in a relationship or just a friend with benefits. Now for the uninitiated like me, a friend with benefits is just like any other friend but with the benefits of a girlfriend or boyfriend (whichever applicable to your personal tastes and preferences) with no strings attached in the sense of commitment or the likes. I have to admit, the question did catch me off guard, but when I think of it, the answer surely is that I would prefer to be in a relationship rather than to have a friend with benefits. My reasoning goes like this, for me as an individual, though being rather detached, I would always want to have a person who I can rely on and also be relied upon at the same time. A lot of things happen in our lives every day and to have something stable and steady really makes a lot of difference. For me, its not the physical aspect of a relationship, but the emotional aspect that matters more. To know, that when your down and out, and when you need something more than what a normal friend can give you, but its not physical what you need, its here when being in a relationship is different. There are separate jurisdictions where friends operate and with someone who shares more than that, the playing field is different, completely different. At the same time, im not against friends being in a relationship, it makes a lot more sense then because you are with someone who knows you as a friend first. So there is comfort and understanding. And when you share something deeper with someone who is already a friend, things are bound to fall in place easier coz of the higher amounts of the already established understanding of one another.
Another interesting observation is that I was asked this question by people who are already in relationships. And as far I know, they are not particularly unhappy there either. So this only fortifies my point to say that, what a relationship can give you, in this case nothing else can. The relationship needs to be solid and long lasting undoubtedly.
We all are looking for the right person in our lives, they might be right in front of us and we never know. Feel what the other person feels for you before you let yourself into the relationship or before you say no to that person. We all need just one person to change our lives. All we need is a hand to hold and a pair of eyes to look into to see that they believe you when you don’t believe in yourself. To feel cared for when you know the world is looking down at you. To know that someone will listen to every little word of yours and say that itll be ok, to know that you mean the world to someone and to feel that you are loved.
There is nothing else to this life, all the pain and anguish will just disappear when you find that hand to hold, those eyes to believe in and that person to embrace.

well till next time,

adios, ciao, goodbye and the works

I Voted!!!!

hey all,
yes yes yes i am in hibernation. that is why i have not blogged and also not been in touch.
i come online today to tell you that i have voted today. crazy experience but fun at the same time. weird to think that you can make a difference. awesomeness i say. the weird part was the ink they use. from what i have seen and understood over the years, they ink your index finger but today they inked the middle finger. just think of it, you want to show that you voted and in the process you might land up offending a few people.

it was fun, and i cant tell you who i voted for but i can tell you that when the opportunity comes your way please make sure that you go out and vote. your vote can make a difference. so do your part.

till then,
adios, ciao, good bye and the works

Well well well its been a week now since my last blog. The last week was particularly crazy, one which involved a lot of thinking (again u will say). The week went flying by, with trips to college, history and French exams and also a trip to Mumbai. Well, to be frank all the craziness of the week has sort of knocked me back into my senses. I have had the opportunity to see and realize that no matter how much I deny it, there are people who will go out of their way for me. It is difficult for me to accept this, but I am coming to a point where I can let my guard down when I am around these people. It has never been easy for me to let myself go around people. There have been a few people who I would like to thank, and say that if it were not for them I would have lost myself a long long time ago.
Anuja Pradhan: the bestest person ever, Simple Awesomeness is what u r.
Avinash : Bro, nice to know that we can talk about things other than u-know-what
DJ: No words to thank you, not that there are no words but I don’t think I have to. That’s one right I have over you.

Well, that pretty much sums it all up. All the people who are very important and really influence the outlook I have. I have thanked all but one.















Rohini, this is one of the rare instances that I am using your name. you have been inspiring and motivating. You have helped me see things in a different light and you have kept my feet firmly grounded and been with me through some of the most difficult times I have seen lately. Again, I salute you.

I salute every single person who cares for me and every moment I spend with you’ll I cherish and wish that times like this never end. You all are a part of my life which I cannot explain.

Thank You and I love you all.


Till then,
Ciao, adios, goodbye and the works.

Well, here I am again after a long time, sharing my thoughts. In my opinion, over the duration of the last week I was exiled. Exiled from my self and sent away into a deep trance where I was sent to search for a few answers. I don’t think that the purpose of the exile has been fully achieved. But I return with a little more clarity and direction. The amount of thought that has been put into my last week is amazing. I have gone through a fair deal of emotional stress, the reasons for which I am still not sure. With the year coming to an end and having to say good bye to a few very important people has been tough and painful nonetheless. And apart from that I have been denied the one thing that I was counting on for the last two years. I know that its all for the good at the end of the day, but for how long can one not feel the pain that things like this bring along with themselves every time? I have let go and forgotten a lot, and am willing to do the same for the rest of my time, but occasionally I will complain and crib and try to be the child who will die for attention. There is a part to me who loves to be cared for and spoilt silly. That is just a small fragment of my being. The rest of my existence is generally accustomed to being shunned and forgotten. It is from this part of my existence that I live every day. The fragment which I don’t need to care for and take for granted. I have achieved a lot like this, but there is no satisfaction, and no happiness whatsoever linked to it. I have always moved away undetected, like those undercurrents which never see the light off the day. I have been pushed and so I push myself, only towards achieving true happiness which has so conveniently evaded me for all these years.

Well, that is how it works I guess.

Till then,

Adios, Ciao, Goodbye and the works.

what a day!!!

the 6th of march 2009 started off as any other day, and as usual i was late. my mother being her nice old self offered to drop me to college, though i knew that she had some other work just by my college, i let her feel that she is doing me a favour and let her bask in that glory of the mother-being-nice-to-the-child-oh-what-a-great-feeling it-is. so there i was ready to tackle a normal day. frankly, i never thought that this day would give me the oppurtunity to take in my hands something that was created with a lot of love and dedication. and as the day unfolded, i was one of the blessed few to hold two things which i can say are the among the most dearest to me at this point of time. first, after an amazing snack (courtesy avinash) we had the final sample copy of the newsletter in our hands. the first this jinxed acamedic year. what a feeling!!!! there were no errors and the copy was beautiful, with bang on spacing between the texts, and colours that i guess no newsletter in symbiosis has ever seen, it is difficult to explain what i was feeling then. and to top it off, i had two amazing people with me, who share the same (actually much much more) passion and dedication to this newsletter. and the smile on dj's face, what can one say. i saw her happy after a really long time. then my other creation, the yearbook for this year was put in my hands. what can i say, even though it was only the sample and had quite a few errors (which i just completed rectifying) it was beautiful. i just cant lay my eyes off it.

it is so weird how attached you get to the things you are a part of, they become a part of your life, a part of every breath you take and most importantly a part of the people you make it with. without the newsletter, im very sure dj, avinash and i would have been such close friends. and now, i would not have ever interacted with neha, rohini, shashvat and all the other fys so much.
im shocked to see how u cant think of life without some things, its like ull never survive another day or simply never see another sunrise. but its the beauty of the team you work with, that at the end of the day, the become more than a team and more than friends, they become your family. and to have people like that around you, those who really care, who are always there for you are the the ones you always take for granted, but still, they love you no less.

till next time,
my friends,

ciao, adios, goodbye and the works.

The Initiation....

well,
we all have to start some where. maybe the supreme almighty chose this day for me, because i had nothing else to do and along with that i needed a place where i can divert my self from the nagging irritation in my brain. after pulling off all nighters for over a week, my control center cannot just be shut off without it going through the monotonous ritual of staring at the laptop screen, stretching my tired limbs and then staring at the laptop screen again. and besides this, keep checking ur inbox every 10 minutes and also keep ur mind on where your business empire on facebook has progressed every half an hour. also, not to mention constantly chatting with Anuja, Sonia or some one else whose online. i for a fact, would have never imagined that i would ever blog, but then here i am.
so till next time, when i hope to have more incentive to write rather than to just waste some time.

adios, ciao, good bye and the works.